Tears
Friday, August 06, 2004


A few months ago…

Ocean of tears have streamed down my face…
Because of pain…
Because of love unreturned…
Because of a wounded heart…
Because of a broken soul…
Because of shattered hopes…

Now, I cry again… I cry hard…
Because of joy...
Because of love shared…
Because of a healed heart brimming with happiness…
Because of a resurrected soul…
Because you showed me who I really am, and made me feel good about it...
Because of new hopes…
Because of new-found dreams…
Because of meaningful promises…
Because of the promise of forever…
Because of so many other things that only you were able to bring into my life…

I can't stop crying...

I can't stop loving you...


I can’t wait for the day when I can introduce you to everyone I know (even to strangers):
“This is Keith.
He’s smart...
A better writer than me...
Makes up bullshit for a living...
And HE’S MY HUSBAND.”

I can’t wait to be your wife and have a family with you.


And may I borrow a couple of lines from one of my favourite songs:

For a chance to be with you, I’d gladly risk it all.
For a chance at loving you, I’d take it all the way.



 
's thoughts were ambushed at 5:23 PM

Paranoia kills
Tuesday, August 03, 2004


You love me...
I have you here by my side...
Our hearts overflow with happiness and love for each other...
That's all that matters to me now...
Sorry I ever doubted you and your love...
I just don't feel too special anymore...
Maybe i'm not the one you should love...
Maybe you're beside the wrong person...
Maybe you could have been happier with her...
I'm not that special, you know...



(as if on cue, i hear "our" songs play on my winamp)


WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING?!?!?


YOU LOVE ME...

I HAVE YOU HERE BY MY SIDE...

OUR HEARTS OVERFLOW WITH HAPPINESS AND LOVE FOR EACH OTHER...

THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME NOW...

SORRY I EVER DOUBTED YOU AND YOUR LOVE...



i truly am sorry, baby... our bestfriend PARANOIA paid me a visit...




 
's thoughts were ambushed at 1:04 PM

Blind faith?
"...Thanks to you now I know all my dreams can come true...
...And i'm not sure I deserve a woman so true but I love that you think I do...
...I've got BLIND FAITH in you..."

You sang these words to me as if only me could have made your life complete, as if only me could have made such difference...



I wonder if you knew that YOU are the one who turned my life around and showed me who I really am..

...That I was afraid of dreaming and never really believed in dreams, until you came and showed me that dreaming can be beautiful and making them come true is worth all the pain that we might go through...

...That with you by my side, life can throw her worst shit at me, and i'll just show her my finger and laugh at her face...

...That you literally brought back the real me from a world where showing my true colors cost too much...

...That with your "blind faith," i see more...

...That whatever i say wouldn't amount to what i feel for you AND how you make me feel...

I wonder if you know how much i love you...



 
's thoughts were ambushed at 12:55 PM

In the middle of nothing
My first blog...

Here at my workplace.. Got lots to do, but don't know where to start...

My mind's gone blank... Need some coffee...


 
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